« Scenes from Florida: Part Threes (Waves and Sting Rays) | Main | Scenes from Florida: Part Five (River of Grass) »



Robert le Diable

Matthew, I have a question for you and this quote:

"Whatever it takes, I vowed to myself, I will live in a tree tunnel before it's too late"

...is germane to that question. In fact, that sentence sort of boils down my question into a few words: Is it ever too late?

By that I mean (okay, here's where I get wordy) when/if you ever find the "right" thing after years or decades of being in or doing the "wrong" thing, is there regret over lost time? I know you're a bit younger than me, but I respect your opinion and I'd like to know what you think.

To be more specific, if you're in the wrong job/career/relationship/city/area... you name it... and you finally find your place, do you think there's a lot of regret over not having found it sooner? If you do find your tree-tunnel (and my experience has been that such discoveries tend to be accidental or serendipitous), do you just move on and be happy about it or do you think you'd wonder why it hadn't happened sooner and how different would your life be if it had happened sooner?


Matthew Gallaway

Whoa, Robert -- I think its probably impossible to generalize about the questions you ask! That said, here goes! I believe that life is inherently filled with regret about paths not taken but at the same time offers the opportunity to reframe the past (which, as you correctly point out I think, is often a question of luck or contingency) into something that was meant to be, if that makes any sense, which can be a source of consolation, assuming weve arrived at a place we feel is better (at least in some ways) than where weve already been. (For more on this, I recommend reading Richard Rorty, Contingency, Irony and Solidarity.)

Robert le Diable

Thanks. I think you generalized pretty well, LOL. And thanks for the recommendation. I'll try to check it out. The reason I thought of you, I guess, is that you seem to have experienced things like that, as most people do, but you seem to think about things more deeply than most people. And for me, there's probably more behind me than before me, so maybe that's why I'm thinking about that sort of thing. Also, I can't say that I've ever really felt settled or satisfied, and I want those feelings. Sometimes I wish I could turn off my brain and just be numbly happy as some people seem to be.

Life, she is a funny thing, no?

Robert le Diable

Two more things...

I looked up Rorty and found this:

"It is his goal, therefore, to recontextualize the past that led to his historically contingent self, so that the past that defines him will be created by him, rather than creating him."

Wow. What I could do with that. I think I will have to follow up on your recommendation.

And on my way to Rorty, I accidentally (serendipitously?) stumbled upon a song that I had never heard of: "The Irony of Dying on Your Birthday." That hit me like a sledgehammer. My father died on his birthday a few years ago. I'll have to look into this song a little more.

Matthew Gallaway

Yes, I believe that quote by Rorty is in reference to Proust.

The comments to this entry are closed.

Gods final



A young boy wanders into the woods of Harlem and witnesses the abduction of his sister by a glowing creature. Forty years later, now working as a New York City homicide detective, Gus is assigned to a case in which he unexpectedly succumbs to a vision that Helen is still alive. To find her, he embarks on an uorthodox investigation that leads to an ancient civilization of gods and the people determined to bring them back.

In this colossal new novel from the author of The Metropolis Case, the myth of Orpheus and Eurydice collides with a new religion founded by three corporate office workers, creating something beautiful, illogical, and overwhelming. Part sex manifesto, part religious text, part Manhattan noir—with a dose of deadly serious, internet inspired satire—#gods is a sprawling inquest into the nature of faith and resistance in the modern world. With each turn of the page, #gods will leave you increasingly reborn.

Praise for #gods

“#gods is a mystery, an excavation of myths, an index of modern life, a gay coming-of-age story, an office satire, a lyrical fever dream, a conspiracy. One of the most ambitious novels in recent memory—and a wild, possibly transformative addition to the canon of gay literature—it contains multitudes, and seethes with brilliance.” —Mark Doten, author of The Infernal

“Matthew Gallaway’s #gods is a novel so brilliant, so funny, so full of strange and marvelous things, I couldn’t stop writing OMG WTF I <3 THIS SO MUCH in its margins. It’s rare to find a novel that so dazzlingly reinvigorates age-old meditations on faith and f&!*ing, art and eros. Luminous, enterprising, and sublimely cheeky, #gods tells the story, the myth, the dream of the human soul in all its glorious complexity.” —Suzanne Morrison, author of Yoga Bitch

“Matthew Gallaway’s storytelling manages to be both dreamy and serious; lean and luxurious. His words carry an incantatory power of mythic storytelling where beauty and savagery wrap around each other like bright threads in a gorgeous tapestry.” —Natasha Vargas-Cooper, author of Mad Men Unbuttoned: A Romp Through 1960s America

“If the ancient gods were just like us, only more so, then the same could be said for this strange, wonderful book, in which the mundane sorrows and small triumphs of very ordinary lives glow ever so slightly around the edges, sometimes quite literally. At once an oddly romantic send-up of dead-end office culture and an offbeat supernatural procedural, #gods is terrifically weird, melancholy, sexy, and charming.” —Jacob Bacharach, author of The Bend of the World

The Metropolis Case

'It’s to the credit of Matthew Gallaway’s enchanting, often funny first novel that it doesn’t require a corresponding degree of obsession from readers, but may leave them similarly transported: the book is so well written — there’s hardly a lazy sentence here — and filled with such memorable lead and supporting players that it quickly absorbs you into its worlds.'

-- The New York Times

Music: Death Culture at Sea and Saturnine

Listen or download songs and records from my indie-rock past with Saturnine here and Death Culture at Sea here.

Music Video: Remembrance of Things Past

Watch the rock opera Remembrance of Things Past written and performed by Saturnine and Frances Gibson, starring Bennett Madison and Sheila McClear.

Video: The Chaos Detective

The Chaos Detective is a series about a man searching for 'identity' as he completes assignments from a mysterious organization. Watch the first episode (five parts) on YouTube.

Enter your email address:

Powered by Feedio


All photographs on this blog can be purchased HERE in many formats including tiles :)
My Photo

Google Analytics